Have you never been taught to not judge a person?

I may be indecisive, I may be a little different but I AM still a person. You may be older than me, probably wiser too but I think I can decide on my own of what I shall and shall not do for my future. Growing up, I learn what I give is what I get. I don’t think I’ve ever hid something on purpose to make someone else fail. I try to help as much as I can, when I can and I want. But to have somebody to hesitate and ignore when I am in need, what’s that all about?

You may think you’ve figured me out, trust me you’re wrong. How much of me do you actually know? I can bet it’s no more than 10% of who I really am and I don’t think I’d mind but seriously, don’t ever think you know me so well to want to lecture me of what I should be doing.

I’m different. Definitely.. different. I’m not exactly the smartest girl in class, but do not ever underestimate me. To look down on me? I will never forget. There was a time when I was just this typical girl, who probably had everything she needed. Not wanted. But I was happy. I was so afraid of my own happiness.. because I knew noone could have everything they needed and be happy. I’ve been through a lot and it’s none of your business. No, I am not as stupid as you think. I am not hardworking, but I tend to want to prove myself to other people.

I won’t repeat your mistakes, because any mistakes I make it would be MY mistakes that I made myself. So thanks for your advice but I think I can handle this. Even if I can’t, what’s the worst that can happen?

I am already in a nightmare I never thought I’d want to live in, but I am.

So yes, I enjoy all the little things I can enjoy. I keep them with me to forget all the things I don’t want to remember. Enough? Enough.

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